30 months-Pondering "The Savior of the World"
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Thursday, August 27, 2009
Well, it has been 19 1/2 days since we lost our little boy. I think that now the shock is just beginning to wear off and it seems as though this isn't just a terrible nightmare. Danny is back at work, I am starting work next week, each of these steps makes it all seem more real. I know that we are not the only ones who have lost a child, but that sure doesn't make it any easier. One week from tomorrow is Bridger's first birthday, he was so close. I guess I will keep trying to hold on to this fog as long as I can, but who knows how long that can last.
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My heart continues to ache for you. I'm sure it's not easy to go on with everyday life, without your precious baby boy. When you have a sick baby, your life starts to revolve around them. If Owen were gone, I don't know what to do next. Kamryn would somehow keep me going, but I PRAY that I won't ever know that pain.
We are praying for you all the time. I wish you luck as you start back to work. I know it won't be easy.
Andrea
Oh Staci, I'm so sorry that you are having to live through and experience this. Please know that my thoughts and prayers have been with you and Danny.
Deanna
Good luck with work next week. You are so good at what you do, they are lucky to have you. I guess it's good you get to "ease" back into a routine by just working 2 days a week. If you need anything, call me. Bridger's birthday coming up is such a bitter sweet event. He WAS close. Yes, hold onto your "fog" for as long as possible. I've been checking the blog daily hoping to see an update from you. We think about Bridger every day. Tre has stopped praying FOR Bridger nightly...instead he tells God to "say hi to Bridger from Tre" and "tell him I love him" every night. It makes me smile.
Moments like this make me so look forward to the day we can pass through the veil with outreached arms and be together again. In all eternity I cannot imagine a more beautiful day.
Andrea's mom
Such hard times. It is such an adjustment to all aspects of your life, having a child pass on. Remember, it's ok to have a day to just cry. Hope you have something special planned for his birthday!
Melissa
I'm so sorry Staci. Please know that we all think of you every day, a lot. Your family and friends all love you and Danny so much. Bridger is missed by all his cousins so much. Even though they only got to see him on the computer and in pictures, he had a huge impact on their lives. His warm and loving eyes and smile will forever fill their minds and hearts. (and for the rest of us as well) We are here and we all love you so much. Love, Brandon, Heather, Abby, Britta, and Carson
Oh, this breaks my heart! We are so sad for you guys. I can't even begin to imagine all that you are going through after all that you have ALREADY been through the last year! My heart is breaking....we love you guys!
You are so brave...both of you! You have made me think about things in a different way, a better way. Bridger's birthday will be a rough time for you but celebrate. Celebrate the short time you had with him so he can see from above and smile upon you! I am sure you will feel lots of little angel kisses that day!
One day you will stop counting the days, then you will go by weeks and then months. He was so close that his b-day. Good luck with work next week. I will call you again tomorrow. Love you and think of you all every day. I know our children are looking down at us and keeping track of us. We have to make them proud.
I hope you feel comforted by his spirit. I only got to hold our little girl for a few hours, but I feel like she is there quite a lot. There is not a day that goes by that I don't think about her. Just know that you are in our thoughts and prayers during this difficult time.
Becca Cason
I can't imagine how you and Danny must feel. I am holding Ellie a little tighter these days. I hope you find peace in your journey forward.
Happy Birthday little man. We love you!
I just read Bridger's whole story! Wow you have been through a lot! What a beautiful boy. I am so sorry to hear Heavenly Father called him home when I know you weren't ready to let go. This hits so close to my heart because of the devastating news we recieved about our sweet Mason last week. If we do decide to look into the heart-lung transplant I will call you with questions. Thanks for offering. You'll be in my prayers for continued comfort at this time.
Mason's Mommy
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