thankful on this day of giving thanks...

Well you might all be happy to know that I am a bit less angry as I post today.

Today, Danny and I decided to stay home together and be thankful for what we have instead of going out and grieving over what we have not.  This may not make sense to some of you, but it makes perfect sense to us.  While we love our family dearly, holidays and special occasions are reminders that we have yet to be able to take one of our children to nana's and papa's for a family meal.  We haven't been able to dress our babies up in some silly little costume and take them around to "trick or treat".  But back to the point......instead of us feeling bad for our losses, we are grateful for our blessings.

1- I am blessed to have the experience of being pregnant twice!  Especially when we thought it might not even be possible once.
2- I love the feeling of my babies inside of me, playing and sleeping, there is nothing like the closeness that I have felt with each of them.
3- I am blessed to have a husband who is my best friend.  He takes me as I am whether that is angry, sad, crying, dysfunctional, distanced, you name it he has lived with me through it all and still loves me.  When many couples have fallen away from each other in such difficult times, I am forever grateful that we have only become closer.
4- We are blessed to have our family and friends, so many of you have been such a great support to us.  You have not demanded things that we cannot give and you have loved us through it all.
5- We are blessed to have both a little boy and a little girl and though we have not and will not get to see them grow too old in this life, I know we will in the next.  I am excited to see who is more like Danny and who is more like me!

Though there are many more things that I am grateful for, these are at the top of my list.  I hope you have taken a moment to think about your blessings..........